Hatred, Anger, and Despair
Dark, thick woods surrounded Gideone,
Stavros, Vayan, and Phautina, hiding them from sight. The silver rays of the moon shone down
through the spaces between the leaves overhead, dotting the ground with pale
light. Phautina lay on her stomach upon
a soft, grassy spot of earth and tried to keep still as Stavros and Vayan
examined her shoulder. Stavros looked
utterly exhausted. There were dark
circles beneath his eyes, and it seemed to take all his energy to simply
concentrate on Phautina's wound.
Gideone sat on a nearby fallen tree. His head was in his hands, and he moaned to
himself, "He lies. He has to be
lying."
Phautina's left sleeve had been cut off so
Stavros and Vayan could work more freely.
The shaft of the arrow stuck out and angled slightly toward her spine,
and the head was firmly embedded in her shoulder. Though Stavros touched the area around her
wound as gently as possible, she still sobbed in pain.
"It appears nothing vital was
struck," Stavros determined after a moment.
Gideone's brow was furrowed in anger.
"Abiel must lie; Eagle promised herself to me."
Stavros cast an annoyed look at Gideone and
then turned back to Phautina.
“The arrow pierced deeply,” he murmured.
"If it’s pulled out we run the risk of having the arrowhead break off
inside the body."
"He’ll regret lying," the prince
growled as he stood up.
"I could use some silence," Stavros
muttered as he scowled at Gideone, but the prince, either not hearing or not
caring, continued talking to himself.
With an exaggerated sigh, Stavros turned back
to Phautina. "I’m going to have to push the arrow all the way through your
shoulder and out the other side."
"Tnaka will pay too," Gideone
continued, his voice growing louder as his anger waxed greater.
Stavros sighed loudly, opened his mouth, and turned
to Gideone, but before he could speak Phautina said with a groan, "Hurry
up and just do it."
"He never deserved her," the prince
growled.
"This is going to hurt," Stavros
said, still clearly angered by Gideone.
"As if it doesn't hurt already,"
Phautina muttered, still fighting the pain.
"Does he think that simply because he’s
a Power and I'm only a prince that he’s more worthy of her than I?"
Stavros reached out and took the shaft of the
arrow in both hands. He realized he had
forgotten to tell her that the feather had to be broken off before the arrow
could be pushed through.
"I swear I’ll make him pay,"
Gideone cried.
Stavros cast another angry look at the
prince.
"All three of the Powers will pay!"
"Would you be quiet!" Stavros
thundered as he snapped the arrow in two.
Phautina cried out in pain.
"Do you realize how much sleep I’ve had
since we left the elves?" Stavros demanded as he jumped to his feet and
faced Gideone. "Practically none!
Why? Because, despite your
bravado, you needed to sleep so I took your bloody watch. I’ve had no sleep for the last twenty
hours. I’m out here in the middle of a
forest in the middle of the night, trying to tend to a wounded woman, and all
you can do is stand by and snivel over an insult thrown out in the midst of
battle by a man who’s barely worthy to bear a sword? What is wrong with you?"
"How dare you talk to me like
that!" cried the prince.
Phautina gasped with pain. "Vayan, can
you finish this?"
"Aye," Vayan said as he knelt down
where his father had been. He took the
arrow in both hands.
"Abiel’s a worthless cur," growled
Gideone. "Why shouldn’t I be angry at his lies?"
"All right," Vayan murmured to
himself, "I can do this." He
had never caused pain to a woman before.
"His lies?!" Stavros cried.
"Yes, do it!" Phautina groaned.
"If it’s lies that anger you, Gideone,
did it ever occur to you that Tnaka and Eagle have been married for three
years? I doubt Abiel’s lying."
Gideone sent his fist slamming into Stavros'
jaw, and Stavros reeled back.
Phautina screamed as Vayan pushed the arrow
through her shoulder.
"It's all right. It's all right," Vayan said, nearly as
relieved as Phautina. He helped her sit
up then pulled the arrow free.
"What’s she still doing here?"
Gideone growled as he turned to face her.
Stavros, holding his hand to his chin, picked
himself up off the ground.
Vayan put his hand over Phautina's wound. Immediately it was healed, leaving only a
small scar. He turned, his jaw clenched,
and looked up at Gideone.
"I thought I said she could only come as
far as Jwassax," snarled the prince.
"What’s wrong with ye?" Vayan
demanded as he jumped to his feet. "Ye've hated h’r since th' momen' ye
set eyes on h’r, but she's saved y’r life twice already!"
"She never saved my life!"
"D’ye actually think we could o' outrun
Abiel's men if she hadna stopped them wit‘her magic? Or do ye forge' tha' less than an hour ago
had she no' been ridin' behind ye, you would o' been th' one with th‘ arrow in
y‘r back?"
Gideone took a step back and looked wildly at
Stavros and Vayan. "First Orion betrayed me, and now you!"
"How dare ye say tha'!" Vayan
cried. "Orion's m' friend, an' I know he'd never betray anyone."
"He betrayed me," Gideone snarled
as he drew his sword. "He escaped, but you won’t!" He rushed at Stavros and Vayan, and they drew
their swords to defend themselves.
"Stop!" Phautina's cry rose loud
and clear through the night. Her brown
eyes flashed, and her homely face bore such a look of nobility and command that
the three men could not help but draw up short.
"Stavros, you’re exhausted," she
said. "Gideone, you’re exhausted and wounded. Both of you will sleep, and Vayan and I will
stand watch."
"No!" Gideone cried weakly as he
stumbled forward. His face had suddenly
turned ashen, and his hands had begun to tremble. Gasping for breath, he said, "I will
stand watch over the..." His sword fell from his hands, and, with a groan,
he sank to the ground.
Stavros rushed forward, but, before he could
reach him, Phautina was at the fallen man’s side. She looked up at Stavros, and there was
something in her eyes that made him stop and step back. She held the prince's head in her arms and
looked down at him, and with his dark eyes, he stared weakly back up at her.
Softly–so softly that neither Stavros nor
Vayan could hear her words–she spoke. "I know why it is you wish to stand
guard. These dreams which haunt your
sleep and make you long for the light of day are brought by no man save
yourself. They’re your hatred, and your
anger, and your despair which fill up your heart and consume your mind and from
which you cannot free yourself. They’ll
drive you to insanity if you find no deliverance from them. But that day has not yet come. This night Joretham will give you peace that
you might sleep, and perchance upon the morrow you’ll awake a wiser man."
He said nothing in reply. His eyes closed, and she lay his head back
down upon the earth.
"What did you do?" Stavros demanded
as he rushed forward.
"'Twas but a small spell," she
answered as she turned to him. "I suggest you check his wound, for it’s
obviously worsened. Then you should also
sleep."
"Thank you," he breathed. When he realized that for one night he would
be able to sleep and not worry about Gideone, a burden seemed to drop from him.
"I swear you must be sent from Joretham."
She smiled in return. "Perhaps I
am."
* * *
The pale rays of the early morning sun shone
out across the golden city of Leilaora, and already the towers and spires of
the castles and temples and cathedrals sparkled in the light. Though early, the streets were already filled
with people, and through this throng the Dark Sorcerer, with Orion riding
beside him, made his way.
The Sorcerer sat tall and proud upon his
horse, not deigning to look upon the people who crowded the streets. On the other hand, all strength was gone from
Orion. His long, dirty, hair, washed in
his own blood and sweat, hung down and nearly covered his face. He slumped forward in his saddle, and had no
strength to raise his eyes and look about him.
As they rode through the streets the people's
eyes turned toward them. They looked in
awe upon the dark magnificence of the Sorcerer and in pity upon his
prisoner. Orion could feel their stares
upon him, but he could not bear to look back at them or gaze upon the city he
had left ten years before.
Up through the glorious city of Leilaora he
was brought by the Dark Sorcerer, and through the marble gates of the palace he
was led. They stopped in the middle of
the quiet courtyard of the palace; the Dark Sorcerer stepped to the ground and
practically had to pull Orion from his horse.
The warrior was so weak he fell to his knees, and it was only then that
he raised his head to look at the small group of people gathered there. He recognized Provenna, Tnaka, and Eagle who
all stared in surprise and horror at his condition, but behind them, arms
crossed, scowling, was a young man Orion did not know.
The queen started toward him. Orion’s lips turned up in a sad half-smile as
he breathed, "Hello, Mother."
With a sigh, he fell forward, unconscious.
Provenna rushed forward. As she did so, the Dark Sorcerer also knelt
to help the fallen man. Slaves were
quickly called, and Orion was carried away to a private room where the palace
healer was called to tend to his wounds.
* * *
Provenna stood in a spacious, dimly lit room
and looked down upon Orion who lay asleep upon a large, soft bed. His wounds had been washed and bound, and he
had been made to feel as comfortable as possible, but even in sleep, he did not
seem entirely at ease. His mouth was
firmly shut, and his brow was slightly furrowed.
Provenna reached out and touched his
forehead.
"Orion," she said, "I doubt
you can hear me–perhaps 'tis better you cannot, for you were ever one to frown
upon familial affection–but I cannot help but speak. I missed you so much, and I doubt you will
ever know how overjoyed I am that you are once again here in Leilaora.
"I wish I could have spared you the pain
you suffered at the hands of Kozan. One
day–perhaps very soon–he will pay for his insolence. Perhaps it will be you yourself who takes
revenge.
"'Twas funny," she continued with a
laughed, "for ten long years I prayed you would return to me, and when you
finally did I could only stand, unmoving, and in horror look upon what Kozan
had done to you.
"You have been unconscious since you
were first brought here, but I would be a fool if I could not see that you have
changed much over the years you have been gone.
I looked into your eyes for but a few moments, and I could see in them
an experience and a profoundness that they never held before."
She laughed. "Oh, but listen to me
ramble whilst you cannot even hear me."
She bent and kissed his forehead.
"Goodnight, Orion. I love you, my son."
With that she turned and walked from the
room.
The Dark Sorcerer stood in the corridor outside. He had obviously been waiting anxiously for
her.
"Your Majesty," he said and started
toward her, "please forgive me. Had
I known he was your son I would have written the moment Kozan captured
him."
She smiled softly at his anxious expression.
"Trouble not yourself, Sir Sorcerer, for how could you have known Orion
was my son? And worry not. As you’ve probably seen, he’s not entirely
human, and, now that he can rest, his body will quickly heal."
"Still, I‘m sorry I didn‘t tell you
sooner."
"You have no need to be. Indeed, I wish only I could have honored your
request to have Mystia brought here as well, but that would have angered Kozan
far more than I could deal with at this moment." Her features darkened at
the thought of her former lover.
"I understand, Your Majesty."
Provenna suddenly brightened and, smiling,
asked, "Will you join me at the feast?"
"I would count it a great honor, Your
Majesty," the Dark Sorcerer answered, inclining his head to her. He offered her his arm, which she took, and
they began to walk down the corridor toward the banquet hall.
Her gaze fell upon the ring which she wore on
her finger. The Dark Sorcerer, in his
letter, had asked that she demand that ring from Kozan. It was a very beautiful ring to be sure–the
stone was unlike any she had ever before seen–but she could not understand why
the Sorcerer found it so important.
"Sir Sorcerer," she began. He turned his face to her.
"All day," she continued,
"I’ve meant to ask you what this ring is and why you found it important
enough to ask me to demand it of Kozan."
He looked at the ring for a moment then said,
"The ring itself is unimportant, Your Majesty. It was a gift to Prince Orion from
Mystia. Both of them held it precious,
and I thought it deserved to be kept by one more worthy than Kozan. Perhaps when the prince has recovered you can
return it to him."
"You can rest assured I will treat it
with care, and, when he has recovered, return it to the one to whom it was
given."
"I did not doubt you would," he
answered.
* * *
Queen Eagle sat alone in the palace
gardens. Darkness had but recently
fallen and the night was yet warm. The
silver moon shone down upon her and cast the whole garden in a beautiful
light. She sat upon a marble bench and
leaned her back against a tree as she looked up at the stars. The faint sound of music drifted across the
garden from the palace where Provenna celebrated her son‘s return, and
occasionally she could hear the merry voices of people who walked along one of
the paths which winded their way through the trees and shrubs.
As she sat, she suddenly had the feeling she
was being watched. Turning, she found
Tnaka gazing silently upon her, standing in the shadow of a tree. Realizing he had been caught, he stirred and,
walking forward, laughed. "I knew I would find you here. Not a day has passed since we first arrived
in Leilaora that you’ve not come to this place."
"I’m honored you would count that
knowledge worthy to obtain, Lord," she told him as she rose.
He took her hand and, smiling, answered,
"I would count any knowledge of you worthy to obtain." He raised her hand to his lips.
She hesitated then said, "You seem quite
merry this night, sir."
He laughed. "I not only seem it; I
am." He sat down upon the bench.
Eagle looked somewhat confused as she also
sat down. "I pray you will not think this too forward of me, Lord, but I
fail to understand why you’re so lifted up in spirits now that Orion has been
brought here, when just recently you were so troubled by the thought of his
arrival."
"'Twas not Orion's arrival that troubled
me but how Kozan would react to it.
Kozan bears Orion an enormous grudge, and it wasn’t clear what he might
do if the prince was taken from him.
But, now that Orion’s been brought here, the danger is passed."
He was silent for a moment and grew more
thoughtful.
"I’m also happy because now Provenna is
reunited with the son she has missed for so long," he continued.
"Perhaps now at least some of the anger and bitterness within her will
disappear. Orion is a capable man, and
perhaps he’ll find a way to deal with Kozan.
And perhaps, with Kozan destroyed and Provenna appeased, the wars which
tear this land apart will be ended. I’ll
no longer have to conquer but can instead return to Kerril and live out the
rest of my days in peace."
"Those are three very large 'perhapses',
Lord."
"Yes," he said with a sigh, "I
know. Large 'perhapses' they may be, but
still they are my wishes."
He took her hands in his and looked intently
into her eyes. "I wearied of war before it ever began, and throughout the
years of conquering the countries of Lairannare for Provenna I’ve wished only
for peace." He gave a small smile.
"Eagle, I’ve waited so long, and at times I despaired of anything ever
changing, but now in my heart I feel soon everything will indeed be
changed. The day I’ve longed for will
come, and I await it with open arms."
Eagle was silent for a moment then said,
"I await it too, my Lord."
Tnaka smiled again, but this time it was not
in joy. Eagle was taken aback, for,
though he had been laughing and merry but a moment before, his eyes suddenly
bore a look of pain and sadness.
"Lord, what is it?" she cried as
she reached out and touched his arm.
He gave a wry smile and said, "Eagle,
must you always call me Lord or Master?
I swear, you address me so in every single sentence you speak to
me."
"What would you have me call you?"
"Eagle, must you even ask?" He rose
to his feet and with opened arms turned and faced her. "For three years
have we been married, and in that time you’ve called me by every title under
the sun–'sir', 'lord', 'majesty', 'your majesty', 'my lord', 'good sir', 'kind
sir', and a myriad more that slip my mind.
But you’ve never called my by the one thing I wish to be called. Why have you never called me 'Tnaka'?"
She paused for a moment before answering.
"You are the king of Kerril. I am a
citizen of Kerril and your humble servant.
'Tis not my place to call you anything but Lord and Master."
"Eagle," he cried, "you’re my
wife. If you aren’t in a place to call
me by my name then who is?"
She bit her lip. “Is it not the place of a
wife to honor her husband?"
"You can honor me without calling me by
titles."
She could think of nothing to say in reply
and gazed down at her hands.
"Eagle," he began but then
stopped. He searched to find the words
to convey that which filled his heart.
"Eagle," he said again, sitting once
more down beside her, "there was a time–it seems like a lifetime ago–when
you were the proudest, most noble woman in the whole of Lairannare. You had knowledge and wisdom far beyond your
years. Your wit, your skill in
conversation and argument, and your un-tamable spirit were renowned throughout
the Realm, and you had a courage that would put many a man to shame. That was the woman I thought I married."
She was silent for a long moment before
raising her gaze to him, her gray eyes filled with sorrow.
"Lord, you speak of things as they once
were." Her voice was tinged with bitterness. "They are no longer that
way. Everything changes–spring to
winter, sun to rain, youth to maturity.
Ask me not to be Princess Eagle of the Sky Elves who was young,
impetuous, foolhardy; who fought with swords, and rode eagles." She fought
against tears. "I am Queen Eagle of the Wood Elves whose spirit has been
tempered, who speaks her mind less impetuously, who tries to serve and support
her husband faithfully, and who long ago gave up swords and eagles and the
skies of Scalavori."
She rose quickly and walked a few paces away,
but not before a sob escaped her lips.
Tnaka waited for a moment then quietly rose
and walked to where she stood. He placed
his hand gently upon her arm. "Eagle, I came to you this night to give you
something. I pray you will accept
it."
"What?" Her voice trembled as,
brushing the tears from her eyes, she turned.
"Here," he said, a hopeful look
upon his face, as he held out his other hand.
Her eyes grew wide with awe as she saw what
he held. In his hand were three
beautiful flowers. The pure, white
petals had only begun to open and did not yet reveal the silvery-blue pistils
within them. The long, silver stems
curved gracefully beneath the flowers' weight and shimmered in the soft light
of the moon.
"Lumellia," she breathed as she
took them. "The flowers of the snow."
She could feel the silver stems against her hand. "And they’re
real." She looked up at him in amazement. "Wherever did you get
them?"
He smiled and said softly, "That is my
secret."
He held up his other hand and in it he held
another flower. He reached up and began
to fasten it in her hair. She tried to
turn away, but he stopped her with a whisper. "Eagle."
He quickly finished his work and stepped
back.
"Stand there." He motioned with his
hand. Hesitantly, she walked to where
she thought he motioned.
"Yes," he said when she looked
questioningly at him, "right there where the moon shines full upon
you."
She straightened and stood still and silently
as he looked upon her.
After a long, long moment he spoke. "You
truly are a child of the snow and the mountains. You were meant to soar with the eagles not
sit at home all day among the trees of the forest. Noble woman, ever have your eyes been turned
toward your native country, and ever has your heart yearned for the home of
your youth, but never once did you complain when I saw not the look which was
so plain upon your face." He took a
step toward her. "When my business with Provenna is completed, you and I
shall travel to the Mountains of Scalavori.
You’ll see the father from whom you’ve been so long absent, and you’ll
ride the eagles you’ve so longed for. We
shall stay there a month, a year, as long as you desire, and, after we’ve left,
we shall return far more than we have in the past three years. This I promise you."
"Oh, Lord," she said, her voice
trembling with more tears that threatened to fall, "thank you."
He walked to her and put his hands around her
waist.
"'Tis but a small thing to do for the
wife I love."
He
kissed her brow.
"I love you, Eagle," he told her
softly. "But," he continued as he took a step back, "I think I
have neglected you. 'Tis a sin for which
I pray you will forgive me, and I want you to know that I will do my utmost to
let it not happen again."
She looked up at him. Her large, gray eyes were filled with
gratitude. Her long, blonde hair fell
down about her, and the moon lighted her soft, beautiful features. As Tnaka looked upon her, he could say with
certainty he knew of no woman more beautiful than she.